Behind These Lies

30 September 2007

what a shitty time i had at the fair.
it was yesterday.
at least D came :)
i havent seen him in such a long time.
boy, do i miss him?
i dont now.
a fight nearly broke out between B and some guy.
it has gotten me damn freaking pissed.
and i also now suspect G of smoking.
what makes me pissed is that if he really does smoke,
means all this time he has been lying to me.
i dont know if i am HAPPY or UPSET or PISSED.
gosh, help me.

but at least today wasnt as bad.
i spent some time with my butch aunt.
she is like the COOLEST EVER!
i told her like so many things that i dont tell my mom.
she like totally understands.
i told her about the smoking thingy,
even though she smokes.
but i think she stopped already.
which would be good.
but what just spoils my day is YM and B.
RAH!
i dont want to think about it.
i might just play with BESTFRIEND again.
but i wont, cus i have my friends with me at all times.

plus i am going out with DEL, JAS, LII tmr for a day of fun,
to get my mind off things :)

btw according to them, D is the best.

& more clueless fears.
9:50 PM

26 September 2007

ZOMG!
yesterday was SOOO retarded in school.
Jas had a shock by Jo,
cus I got bullied by Jo for whacking her breast.
Del got "raped" by Jo,
and WE got it on video.
Del was such a poor thing.
everyone got frightened for Jo,
and the BEST part was all Ryn did was
LAUGH LAUGH and LAUGH.
Lii eventually also got bullied by Jo.
this ALL happened during our break,
and we ended up running away from Jo.
OH WHAT FUN my most BEAUTIFUL CLIQUE <3

after school, me and Lii and to rush to Bugis
to get the STUPID waterguns for the STUPID funfair this Saturday.
Basil came to meet me at YCK MRT station.
i made him wait for 45mins.
when i reached YCK MRT station,
Gideon already reached Bugis.
i felt SOOOOO bad making him wait.
Lii couldnt resist feeding Ginger the cat,
so she also was late :)
i conclude,

GIRLS ARE FASHIONABLY LATE.

so Lii, Gideon, Basil and I went to find for waterguns.
BUT the worst part is that 1 BIG watergun,
and 1 SMALL watergun doesnt work.
so i have to go back to Bugis tomorrow to change it.
i hope they will allow.
Lii isnt free tomorrow,
so i managed to get Basil to follow me all the way there.
oh well,
today was CHINESE LESSON THE WHOLE DAY.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
and then i had CHINESE TUITION.
MAN i hate today.
update soon, gonna talk till 3 again :)

& more clueless fears.
11:26 PM

24 September 2007

ZOMG!
it's FINALLY ALL OVER.
Innovation Week ended today.
i spent like 45mins per drawing ytd.
i'll show you.

best right.
waste my life.
not easy please.

anyways, me and lii are going to bugis to get the water guns.
if bugis doesnt have cheap ones,
we'll go back to The Concourse.
gideon and basil wants to come find me.
oh and ytd, i went to basil's house to teach him properties of a circle.
at least i knew that topic really well.
ahahahaha.

the number is 9.
kill me please.

& more clueless fears.
10:25 PM

21 September 2007

poem titled: & an untold love attachment.

first, unspoken words;
unveil before my eyes,
a moanful touch of yesterday's tears,
nosily silence that cry.

what slowly fades,
is that untold feeling,
with what sparks,
a new beginning.

this happening, falls;
into endless deep sorrow,
recollecting thoughts,
of a yester-years' tomorrow.

my dread of doubt,
the heart that hurts,
my cry from being confuse,
shatters memories made.

i've let go,
once a many times,
emotions break this fort of mine,
think about the doubt of his coming.

& an untold love attachment,
an unbecoming ending.

21 sept 2007, 10:53pm.

& more clueless fears.
11:45 PM

INNOVATION WEEK PROJECT.
it's a killer.
let me show you the drawings wanlin and i drew with the computer.
how troublesome.
didnt do much today besides IWP.
psst, go KILLER news.
YM kinda did like joelle, like EWWWWWWW.
btw this is a guy.
okay, here are the results of today's IWP.

& more clueless fears.
11:03 PM

20 September 2007

YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE IT.
the stupid innovation Week Project is like SO DARN HARD.
so much work to do.
how to draw.
i am trying but i think i am failing.
to think if i could draw, i would consider it as my future JOB?!
yeah right, what a far fetch dream.
ahahaha?

aiya, and _ O _ _ _ A _ _ H just got me FOOKING mad.
RAH! what to do,
forget it.

shit, so much more work to do.
i cant complete it.
blog again tomorrow <3
g'night my _________-self.

& more clueless fears.
11:45 PM

19 September 2007

look at what me and LIYANA did before the day was over.
OH what FUN we had.
this was pointless,
but we LAUGHed till our Stomach hurt.
let's see what we'll DO tomorrow!
MUAHAHAHA
THIS HELPS OVERCOME BOREDOM.

& more clueless fears.
11:11 PM

sorry i havent blogged for what seems like YEARS, due to exams.
NOW......

MY EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!
HOLIDAY MOOD HERE I COME!

on monday, after J's and D's POA paper were over,we went SHOPPING!
we were looking for a dress for J, and a pair of shoes for D.
J bought a really nice dress!!!
we did cam-whore, AS USUAL.
will load it here later after my post.
man oh man,
some time ago, i made a guy cry at YCK mrt station.
how embarrassing please!
why did he cry, you might be thinking...
i told him straight to his face no way,
and then he went on and on about how much he liked me.
OH PLEASE!
i already said no.

ARGH! i think i am depressed.
i went home alone last D.A.R.E on the 15th of Sept.
did some thinking...
and felt miserable.
i think i really pity myself.
i have so much things going on,
yet i still waste my life away by using my bestfriend every once in a while.
a disappointment huh to some?
aiya, i dont know what to do anymore.
THANKS TO ALL THE FAGS who help make my life worse EVERYDAY.
sometimes i wish they could see things from my point of view.
okay, ENOUGH of moaning in self-pity...
i'll upload the most recent CAM-WHORING session dated 16th Sept 2007!

& more clueless fears.
1:40 PM