12 February 2007
gosh.nice faggot, dumb faggot and weird faggot.turns out nothing is quite as it seems.today, is *dumb* faggot.apparently, *dumb* is dumb-er than i EVER thought.now i'm being thrown to the floor with emotional hurt.why did it have to happen?am i that horrible?am i so horrid?i told you that you have changed ever since you got back you're different.NOW i know why.why couldnt you have told me?why did you have to hide it?couldnt you just tell me?i asked you MANY TIMES what was on your mind...but no, you didnt say anything.NOW i have to find it out on my own.do you know how much more hurt you're caused.all this time, i should have known.my friends told me to dump you, cus in the FIRST place you're not worth it.but now, all the more reasons i should have listened to them.they were watching my back for me.you're the cause of my change.*dumb*, you're such an ass.you dont have any compassion at all, do you?what's the best past is that you EVEN asked me out for VALENTINE'S DAY.why?so you can break me on that day?too bad, i'm the one that's gonna make that move FIRST!you're SUCH a faggot, you know.is this all because i broke your heart first?so now it's pay-back time?i thought you said you didnt believe in revenge?or were you just using me all this while?just so you could hurt me?why would you EVEN ask me out with your friends?cus you all pity me, for this is the result of this game, you were all playing on me?just cus i'm younger than all of you?what's in that sick-minded head of your's?i thought i could believe in you, i thought i could trust you.turns out i was right all along.you were trying to male me feel guilty when other guys like me.just because you had another girl outside.2-timing me.so let me guess AGAIN, it's MY FAULT right?for your sudden change.i found out you lied to me.you blew me off for that other girl.so why did you even bother to ask me out for Valentine's Day?cause you knew for sure that i couldnt go out?you got jacked.I CAN GO OUT.you just disappoint me a whole LOT.you an go live your SCREWED UP LIFE, cus i stll have got my friends to hold me up, and help me stand tall.cause you know what, the guy i fell in love with for the past 8 years is GONE.what is left, is a poor; sick-minded; screwed up; YOUNG pitiful CHILD.would you feel guilty?i wouldnt know.what will you do?i think you've forgotten me already.
& more clueless fears.
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