everyday partner and i had FUN in geog lesson today.
i held up a map to block TEE from seeing liyana change out of her PE shirt into her uniform.
OH, and i found a tie.
liyana didnt kow this at first but while having fun with our new hobby ehich includes tiny pieces of paper being thrown at each other.
tiny pieces of paper which got stuck in liyana's hair.
OH what FUN!
liyana's so hardworking.
she scored higher than me in both geog and E maths so far.
tsk.
i must learn from everyday partner.
i have to study harder and actually do the homework!


it's the past. but here it is again...

my poem: 27th.

the stars still shine
when i look into your eyes
it was a picture perdect memory
just being by your side

keep me safe
keep me secure
keep me yours
just forever more

this rememberance is mine
for just you to keep
i love you and remember that
cause it'll never seem to cease
in this memory of you and me!



my poem: It Hurts.

words that were spoken.
daggers to my heart.
actions that were forseen.
left these two apart.

a century's old tale.
nothing but a myth.
your actions towards me.
your unconcern tone.

what's this to become of me?
you left me in misery.
it hurts.



my poem: Freedom.

without chains.
through open doors.
see those leaves,
fall to the floor.

unearthed soil.
pattering rain.
all these wandering,
just see it fade.

limitless time
unknown freedom.
once unventured,
now significant.


i got officially dumped by HIM today.
he said the whole "we're still good friends" speech.
oh, go and die.
i think i was part of a game.
a sick game that you all thought was amusing.
see someone hurt.
i couldnt contain my tears till i reached home,
so in the freaking public bus i started to tear.
but no one saw, at least.
the _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ is my bestfriend again.
080107, 281106.
now 270207.
all these USELESS numbers.
HE still had the nerve to ask me how i was doing and how i was feeling online.
and HE went into the whole "we're friends, right?" speech.
just give me a break.

*this is the part where the song "Walk Away" by Paula DeAnda starts playing.*

but you've gotta switch the roles, if you get what i mean.
the lyrics make alot of sense and has meaning.
anyways, i really dont know what is going on.
one minute he has feelings or me, and that this whole thing was important to him.
the next, he asked his Ex to stead already and i mean nothing to him anymore.
in love for a second, the next out of it?
HE was suppose to be the mature one.
look who's the one being immature.
after everything...
you did it all for the chase, didnt you.
such an amateur.
how could you do this to me?
i have nothing more to say to you.
what can i say to change you back?
you yourself said you're changed.
what more can i do?
i might say that all that matters is that you can be happy...
but i want to be happy too.
i cant be that now.
i'm hurt.
cant you read in-between the lines?
are you as dumb as i think?


for you.

my poem: Dream Girl.

dream girl,
sing it all over again.
dream girl,
the only one for you.

conquer her heart,
win it all,
she'll be your's
just forever more.

turn back time,
undo all wrong.
so the Sun shall still shine,
all day long.

keep it unsolved,
commit more undone.
the rain till pours,
just for my heart alone.

no one's gonna hold you down,
especially not I.
i just want you to be happy,
i'll even try not to cry.

dream girl,
it's what you're looking for.
dream girl,
forget all past to get her.


it's all about you.

my poem: butterfly change

butterflies changes cycle,
just like you in life.
in a blink of an eye,
all trace is gone.

leave nothing behind,
forget the past.
what use of it to you,
am i right?

i'll let you move on,
even though i cant.
i'll morn silently,
so you cant strifle my cry.


your goal for change,
it's right infront of you.
i wont hold you down,
or hold a grudge against you.


let your wings,
my butterfly,
fly free,
into the dawn.



my poem: Walk Away.

do you know i hurt,
and that i tear too.
i hope it's all lie.
please tell me it really isnt true.

was it a must?
you said you had to.
did i have to find out?
you thought i didnt have a clue.

i heard you cried.
that you still like me too.
or was it a fact,
that you were crying for her to...

come back to you
cause she found out.
so it turns out
that i dont mean as much.

what am i to do,
to have it all be removed?
just from my memory,
of anything me and you.

i've blocked thoughts of you,
of everything i know.
but i just cant help
if i still just do.

am i suppose to
let them all,
fade to ash,
comsume it all.

if i turned back time,
would all this be different?
i'll turn to trust,
maybe you just lust.

the hardest thing,
is to just let it go.
piece it together again,
just to see it fall?

one thing i'll try,
just to do.
i'll walk away,
just for you.


SCREW IT, VALENTINE's DAY.

i hate this day.
all because of you.





screw the love,
bring on the hate.


i'll reply your tags :)

polarbear: nigell you're such an ass. you TOO are a lousy BLOGGER.
so dont anyhow say me. idiot.

jas: i'll try okay?

sandy: yeah, i've got a BLOG, FINALLY right? haha.
yeah IMY too! see you soon.


gosh.
nice faggot, dumb faggot and weird faggot.
turns out nothing is quite as it seems.

today, is *dumb* faggot.


apparently, *dumb* is dumb-er than i EVER thought.
now i'm being thrown to the floor with emotional hurt.
why did it have to happen?
am i that horrible?
am i so horrid?
i told you that you have changed ever since you got back you're different.
NOW i know why.
why couldnt you have told me?
why did you have to hide it?
couldnt you just tell me?
i asked you MANY TIMES what was on your mind...
but no, you didnt say anything.
NOW i have to find it out on my own.
do you know how much more hurt you're caused.
all this time, i should have known.
my friends told me to dump you, cus in the FIRST place you're not worth it.
but now, all the more reasons i should have listened to them.
they were watching my back for me.
you're the cause of my change.
*dumb*, you're such an ass.
you dont have any compassion at all, do you?
what's the best past is that you EVEN asked me out for VALENTINE'S DAY.
why?
so you can break me on that day?
too bad, i'm the one that's gonna make that move FIRST!
you're SUCH a faggot, you know.
is this all because i broke your heart first?
so now it's pay-back time?
i thought you said you didnt believe in revenge?
or were you just using me all this while?
just so you could hurt me?
why would you EVEN ask me out with your friends?
cus you all pity me, for this is the result of this game, you were all playing on me?
just cus i'm younger than all of you?
what's in that sick-minded head of your's?
i thought i could believe in you, i thought i could trust you.
turns out i was right all along.
you were trying to male me feel guilty when other guys like me.
just because you had another girl outside.
2-timing me.
so let me guess AGAIN, it's MY FAULT right?
for your sudden change.
i found out you lied to me.
you blew me off for that other girl.
so why did you even bother to ask me out for Valentine's Day?
cause you knew for sure that i couldnt go out?
you got jacked.
I CAN GO OUT.
you just disappoint me a whole LOT.
you an go live your SCREWED UP LIFE, cus i stll have got my friends to hold me up, and help me stand tall.
cause you know what, the guy i fell in love with for the past 8 years is GONE.
what is left, is a poor; sick-minded; screwed up; YOUNG pitiful CHILD.
would you feel guilty?
i wouldnt know.
what will you do?
i think you've forgotten me already.



i'll reply your tags:

zelia: what;s with the wasabi?

jaspreet: i've done something already.
i've written a blog entry.


YAYE :) thanks to jaspreet, i have another blog.
i know, i dont seem like the type to have a blog, but the other one i had got trashed.
so what exactly am i suppose to write in a blog huh?
:)haha.
well, i just started my third year in secondary school.
i miss 2C2 of 2006 badly.
i miss the clique too.
me and liyana are so lonely in 3B2, while everyone else is in 3C1.
here's some of our memories:



















the main point is that i miss year 2006.
2006 is the Year of Dreams Fulfilled.
but it's alright,
cause 2007 is the Year of New Beginnings.

anyways, i have survived lessons like Physics, Chinese, Additional Maths, E Maths and English.
these are like the SUPER DUPER BORING lessons, with the "bored-to-death" teachers.
and i have my new everyday partners.
we go EVERYWHERE together :)haha.
they are namely LIYANA, XUE QI and WAN LIN.
oh, and there's this new girl in my class named Ruth.
you know my stupid school is using the homeroom system now, and it's "killing" my knees.
i have to climb from the 1st floor to the 4th floor for lessons.
haha, but the teacher actually saw me injured and gave me permission to take the lift in school.
but the thing is, that i'm scared.
what if i "get caught" and the teacher who caught me doesnt believe me that i have the permission to take the lift?
oh well, i'll just suffer a little more, till i go see my foot specialist.
it's like 1plus now, and i cant sleep.
and i have to wale up @ 5 for school.
what am i still doing awake?
tsk.

i'l load up some of my poems and songs to remember the next time i blog.
well, i'll end here but i'm not sleeping yet.





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